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When I was a kid , my favorite entertainment has influenced me to become the artist that I am today. Whenever I find something very entertaining and influential , I wanted to go out and do it. One way or another , I knew in my heart and soul that I wanted in. It was always the love of the art form and to connect with like minded people who shared the same love for this stuff that I do.
The way that it has been done for many years including today and the standard is to go to either Hollywood California or New York City , get discovered and have someone refer you to an agent and or manager to represent you and your work to pitch to networks and studios ( never cold call because it doesn't work ) , and be a part of the mainstream entertainment industry.
That had been my goal and dream since childhood. However I am a very cautious artist that has came a long way from live puppet shows for teenagers at a local library , public access television , pitching to television networks and independent movie studios and internet entertainment companies ( cold calling ) with honorable rejections taking it as complimentary always. And even had films shown at film festivals , film screenings , live performances , Comic Con convention vender table appearances and panels.
I slowly observed the dark side of capitalism and how much it hurts artists , art and the fans. I learned why our favorites can be canceled at any minute , I learned why good artists sell out even though in their heart and soul they do not want to , how cruel business people in the entertainment industry can be and how they just do not belong there in the first place , and also why good artists charge for autographs at comic cons.
From 1999 - 2005 : As long as I can entertain an audience beyond playing with a video camera in my bedroom , I was pleased.
From 2006 - 2009 : I learned that you can create your very own television show just by playing with a video camera in your bedroom and can have it broadcasted onto local television through " Public Access Television "
From 2008 - 2009 : I had the ability to use YouTube in it's heyday before it was owned by Google.
From 2011 - 2012 : I had the ability to create my own DVDs and Video on Demand and have them sold on Amazon using createspace.
In 2012 - I thought if you want to make it big mainstream was the way to go.
2013 - 2016 - Internet technology was changing and practically anything can be available for sale. With a small business , you can do anything with digital technology , internet technology and digital converse.
So therefore officialericcrooks.com was born.
2016 - 2017 I was struggling as an artist entrepreneur spending more and earning less. My products were not the best of quality and people could get better value for their money easily elsewhere.
I had thoughts of closing up shop and even selling to a professional independent film studio which shared my values of respect for independent art but also had the funds to have a lasting legacy where I can finally let go of the business side of things once and for all so I can just focus on the art side of things. I kind of felt like in a similar situation that Jim Henson was in in his final years.
2017 - onwards : I meet my Twin Flame and on and off took time off to help with our Twin Flame Union. Also I was going through a spiritual awakening which lead me to understanding what The New World Order was as well as becoming interested politically in libertarian socialist anarchism which I retired as an entrepreneur but never as an artist / worker. Also coming to the realization that I am an empath , lightworker , heyoka , indigo , starseed , crystal , old soul as well as numerology 5 , this gave me new meaning to my life just like when I came out of the closet as a Transgender lesbian woman and realized my personality type is INFP .
Present : Life is short and it should be enjoyed. And we today have the ability to create our dreams independently more than ever before in the tradition of underground cartoonists and musicians and filmmakers back in the 1960s. I encourage people to follow their dreams and never give up learning about themselves.
The internet played a HUGE influential role in my life . It helped me follow my dreams , it helped me learn more about myself , it helped me unite with my true love / soulmate / life partner of my dreams and it proved to me that no matter how much abuse I've received in life from mentally ill sociopaths , psychopaths , narcissists , and just plain , cruel , heartless / soulless / miserable people , my heart and my intuition and spirit guides helped me get back up and recover like a boxer in the ring.
Yes , I lived a rough life. But who hasn't. Your heart , intuition , and your inner child / child at heart ( your soul ) is so precious and not worth throwing away to capitalism and hierarchical systems that rule over you using fear and hate. Love is the answer.
The most important factors of my life which is a part of my morals , ethics and values to this day I want to bring awareness to the world.
( 1. Law of Attraction / New Age / New Thought Spirituality : My self confidence returned. It saved me from committing suicide taking my life away from being a lifetime victim of narcissistic abuse , living in poverty , being an introvert , and just as a minority. Especially an INFP transgender lesbian woman. The Secret showed me that I had the ability to create beyond fiction , my own life. How did I know that I was going to meet my twin flame face to face in real life after 9 years of telepathy ? I would be DEAD today if it wasn't for this.
( 2. MBTI ® ( Myers Briggs ® ) : Around the time when I was questioning my gender identity / gender expression / and sexual orientation ( LGBTQ+ / in the closet ) and around the time I was first getting dreams , astro journeying and telepathy from my Twin Flame and my first spiritual awakenings , and knowing what I wanted to do with my life ( 2007 ) , I got into this 16 personality type science . From 2007 - 2016 : I thought I was an ENFP . But in truth , I'm actually an INFP . Types like me can easily be victims of the DSM : American Psychiatric Association and other hierarchical state / government psychology controlled systems and be diagnosed with whatever they want. Same with the transphobic label " Gender Dysphoria " . As well as a victim of narcissistic abuse / sociopathic abuse. So don't bark at me about your tax dollars. I didn't create the federal reserve and hierarchy. If you hate the idea of SSI / SSDI , instead of voting republican , why don't you become an anarchist instead . It's hierarchical power's fault and The New World Order's fault. People who live off of SSI / SSDI are not lazy good for nothings . There are many who are and are addicts and sociopaths . But I had a choice between living with having 4 abusive monsters in my life in a middle class setting and working a lousy 9-5 job that I hate or continue living off of SSI / SSDI which I had benefits of disability diagnoses of Asperger's Syndrome / ADD ADHD / whatever since childhood as well as my mother in poverty. Likewise MOST LGBTQ+ live in poverty / low income too. Same with single women. Same with most young people. So if people want to HATE me for this , you don't know what it's like. It's not about being lazy and not caring about the working class. If anything , it's a big THANK YOU for saving the lives of many when you pay your taxes ! And as an anarchist , and as an artist , and as a spiritual worker , I'm doing whatever I can to heal humanity with the gifts I have. Spirit is more powerful than planet Earth five senses perception. Yeah yeah intuitive bias , whatever.
( 3. Anarchism : When I was a teenager and seen the truth about the adult world , seen the truth of how capitalism hurts people if working class or SSI / SSDI , heroes that I love dear , the love of my life , my mother , my friends including a few who became homeless and even one who committed suicide who I miss to this very day but know they are with me in spirit. Yes , anarchism is the political answer for not only people like me but everyone. We are slaved by evil low vibrational people. Love is the answer , forgiveness with love is the answer , and also just as important. Spreading awareness about THE TRUTH !
Hierarchical Power if you believe in The New World Order Conspiracy theory or not or if your politically left wing if centered or anarchist. Right wing politics is a brainwashed HATE group , HIERARCHICAL POWER OVER OTHERS IS EVIL and needs to go away for the sake of for the force of good of humanity , animals , planet Earth , EVERYONE , EVERYWHERE AND EVERYTHING ! This is why sociopaths , psychopaths , narcissists , dark triad , abusive parents , criminals , terrorists , every form of evil exists. HIERARCHY ! IT NEEDS TO GO A WAY ! But of course they will not backoff without a fight.
However for me I am against violence. But if I'm patriotic to anything , it's those who fight in any way for form for the common person , the working class , antifa , anarchists , people who care about people no matter what shape or form. If you want to know who the true superheros in life are , it's people like this. So give them respect instead of the " Social Justice Warrior , Special Snowflake , namby-pamby , Butthurt Crybaby , Stupid Spiritual Guru with a brain of a baby , Evil sinning Red Pinkos , and whatever negative slur and derogatory label is placed upon the left wing.
Life is about SOUL , NOT EGO !
The point I'm making within the passionate rant of a moralist , reformist , revolutionary, romantic , idealist is this.
If I got a mission in my life , it's this .
A reminder that
" YOU ARE NOT ALONE ! "
I lived a sad life where I thought I was. The internet proved me wrong. The internet saved my life with valuable information that helped me and continues to help bring out the best of me. ESPECIALLY OFFLINE !
Now you may not relate to me 100% but that's ok. We're all different but at the same time , we are all the same. Spiritually we are all one. Spirit itself can never be evil. Maybe genetics come into play of bad behaving people at a young age. But again I say it's related to hierarchy and capitalism and pollution environmental problems . But within struggle , there's beauty. There's strength in the soul. Next to living in unconditional love , peace and freedom. Learning is the other aspect which I believe is the answer to The Meaning of Life and why we are here. To stop Evil with the power of love and enjoy life on Earth.
This resource page is for my like minded people of all sorts , resources that I personally use and like which I'd like to recommend which might benefit you too. :)
_ Erica Crooks